bitchfest!

Ever have one of those days where everyone you see you want to punch in the face? Where everything you do is unfulfilled. The food tastes like shit, the laughs feel plastic and machine-like, peoples voices give you headaches, the sun is a nuisance, the wind is annoying little 5 year old blowing in your face. Basically my day. I can't pinpoint an exact reason probably because there are about 20. I'm broke, I'm sure if I could go out and buy myself some new non ripped pants, or some milk for my munchie cereal, or anything for that matter, like spoiled bitches do it might brighten my mood. I can't schedule my classes. I'm not some super 'high class parents have thousands of dollars to throw my way every month' student, and they put a hold on my account. I'm sure every class I need is going to be filled and I'll be screwed with 8am classes I wont make it to cause I can't fall asleep til at least 4 in the morning. My mind won't let me. I barely have any true friends anymore. The kind of friends who will actually have your back. Friends you can depend on and who aren't just using you when they need you. Ones who actually call. One of the true friends I've made this year who has definitely always been there for me and had my back, rescued my ass numerous times. dropped out..
One thing that has made me happy/calmed me down/kept me sane the past couple weeks has been taken away from me also.
Yea Yea so what, I'm wallowing in self pity. Who cares, I'm allowed this is my blog. And I'm in an "I hate the world" kinda mood today. Cause the world is ugly, empty, and I'm just another one of the self pitying citizens who doesn't appreciate what they have. At least I can admit it.